Positive

{ orginally written August 29th, 2012 }

I can't believe I'm about to write what I am writing, I can't believe it one bit.

This morning, at 5am I got a faint but very there positive pregnancy test.

I sat there, crumpled on the floor in disbelief with my hands over my mouth as I processed the second line. Immediately I prayed, thanking oh so much thanking and praying to keep this baby and I safe and healthy. I can't believe I said that, this baby, oh my goodness.

I cried, a whole lot, sitting on the floor of our bathroom in the middle of the night I cried as I continually looked at that beautiful second line. Happy, oh so happy.

I can't even believe it.

I'm approximately 9 days past ovulation, according to typical LMP I'm 3 weeks and a couple days and we are pregnant.

Now that there is a positive, I am hyper aware of my body - please keep this baby and I safe. My mind is still trying to prepare for the worst, this is still very early - any number of things can go wrong but I am praying to keep this baby safe. This is our rainbow baby, long awaited and already so loved.

I want to tell my husband, he will know later today - I'm no good at hiding anything from him and I already have a surprise stashed away for him, I'll post about it later.

May 2013, you can't come any sooner.