Goodbye 2012

I know that there were some good moments sprinkled into 2012 but when I think back on the last year I feel as though someone has literally knocked the breath right out of me. It has been a hard year, while I wrote about my missed miscarriage and the difficulties we have had dealing with the loss of another baby that was so very wanted I didn't write about a lot of the other things that had me gasping for a chance to pull myself together. Oh what a year it has been and I feel it is just that, a year, sometimes you have amazing years and I guess sometimes you get a rough year but nevertheless we have our health and our wonderful families so I know I am still so very blessed.

Goodbye 2012, if nothing else I have only come out stronger and more determined - in all aspects and I hope, pray and believe that 2013 will be an amazing year.

1. Become a Mom

Well, that goes without saying but now that I know that I CAN get pregnant I have a boost of faith that it will happen, if not on its own then with the help of Clomid but I truly do believe and want this to be our year.

2. Love Myself Again

It's not that I actually hate myself but I want to really accept and embrace the woman I am now; physically, emotionally, mentally.. the whole package and stop getting so caught up in what I'm not.

3. Be and Stay Healthy

This would only add to number 2, but it is so much more than loving how I look - I want to feel healthy and I know the multitude of benefits that come with being healthy is so worth the effort. 

4. Date My Husband, Again

Life gets in the way and we have been together for so long now that I think we had both forgotten how great it felt when we used to take time for us. Lately we have really started to focus on spending time together, just us, doing whatever and I would love to keep this up and even pursue it more. 

5. Go to Church

I've avoided church because I couldn't handle seeing all the wonderful, happy families and look at the fragile shell I had become over the years of infertility and loss. I didn't want to go to church bitter and angry so I would hide behind work schedules but I know how much of an impact church does have on me and I would love to go back.

So there you go little blog, a happy little handful of resolutions for this upcoming year and I hope that this upcoming year is filled with all sorts of wonderful and amazing. Happy New Years!