THIS WEEK
I think I'm officially saying goodbye to seeing my toes haha! I'm 17 weeks and can't believe that we are almost halfway through this pregnancy although I am so ready to have this baby here - I know I will have a million different things to worry and stress about once he or she is here but knowing my body failed me before has me terrified and I know logically our losses have no bearings on this pregnancy, but it is still so hard to quiet those anxieties when I have gone all the way to the due date just to say goodbye to our son.. it's so hard and I am so glad that my ob gave the okay for us to use the doppler and just having Dyl being so reassuring is amazing and definitely helps me separate the out of control anxiety caused by my past from normal pregnancy worries. I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful husband, this baby is so lucky to have such an amazing Daddy.
I think I'm officially saying goodbye to seeing my toes haha! I'm 17 weeks and can't believe that we are almost halfway through this pregnancy although I am so ready to have this baby here - I know I will have a million different things to worry and stress about once he or she is here but knowing my body failed me before has me terrified and I know logically our losses have no bearings on this pregnancy, but it is still so hard to quiet those anxieties when I have gone all the way to the due date just to say goodbye to our son.. it's so hard and I am so glad that my ob gave the okay for us to use the doppler and just having Dyl being so reassuring is amazing and definitely helps me separate the out of control anxiety caused by my past from normal pregnancy worries. I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful husband, this baby is so lucky to have such an amazing Daddy.
BABY UPDATE
This week baby is the size of an onion, I hate onions but I still can't believe how big this baby is getting!
This week baby is the size of an onion, I hate onions but I still can't believe how big this baby is getting!
Fat is finally starting to form on our precious little baby, although baby has had taste buds for a few weeks he or she is only now able to make out differences in flavors. Baby's brain is communicating constantly with the nervous system and muscles which is why most moms will begin to feel movements soon.
MOMMA UPDATE
I mentioned above that I've been dealing with my anxieties a lot this week - it's exhausting being this scared and I don't know when I'll start to just feel confident, don't get me wrong I believe this baby will be here with us forever but those fears have such a strong hold on my mind. Physically this week has been filled with pain; I knew this would come but I just keep thinking that I still have another 20ish weeks to go and I can't imagine being in this much pain the whole time - obviously doesn't matter if it means this precious baby is growing strong and healthy just sucks. I haven't had any bad leg cramps since the first big one last week but I seem to get little ones all the time and I somehow managed to make a muscle along the side of my abdomen very angry and I couldn't believe the pain I was in but that luckily faded through the night. Lots of different pains and it always makes me worry.. which is why I've been relying on my doppler a bit more this week. I don't remember mentioning it before but since early in my pregnancy I have had horrible nightmares, mostly of loosing this precious baby and Dyl being horribly mean or cheating - I thought this was just my mind manifesting not only my fears but also since we suffered a miscarriage last year at the same time we struggled with some problems in our marriage that my nightmares were trying to replay last year which sucks! Our marriage is stronger than ever and we both believe that this baby will be here forever but still these nightmares terrified me every night and apparently this is pretty common but today was the first day that I didn't have either and I'm so happy that I may be past those nightmares and I will gladly trade them for some crazy dreams about cats or something. Still feeling some heartburn here and there but not too bothersome,and lately I've been craving green olives so bad, I literally snag a few from the jar all day and they are SO good. This week I went from feeling something to definitely feeling the baby - while hunting for his/her heartbeat with the doppler and the other was while Dyl had his hand on my belly and although he couldn't feel it, I could feel our baby moving against his hand and it was such an exciting and amazing moment.. I can't wait for him to feel the baby move. I also at the end of the week felt the baby move, on the outside! We were watching Batman and I could feel the baby moving around so I put my hand on my belly and I felt this little kick or punch at my hand and I couldn't believe it! I also laughed because with our son I remember the first time I felt him kick on the outside was while we were watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and I find it so funny that both our babies like Daddy's movies (although I quite like Batman too). Movements are still very sporadic throughout the day but I know I'm feeling the baby and it won't be long before I'm feeling this precious baby move around all day :)
I mentioned above that I've been dealing with my anxieties a lot this week - it's exhausting being this scared and I don't know when I'll start to just feel confident, don't get me wrong I believe this baby will be here with us forever but those fears have such a strong hold on my mind. Physically this week has been filled with pain; I knew this would come but I just keep thinking that I still have another 20ish weeks to go and I can't imagine being in this much pain the whole time - obviously doesn't matter if it means this precious baby is growing strong and healthy just sucks. I haven't had any bad leg cramps since the first big one last week but I seem to get little ones all the time and I somehow managed to make a muscle along the side of my abdomen very angry and I couldn't believe the pain I was in but that luckily faded through the night. Lots of different pains and it always makes me worry.. which is why I've been relying on my doppler a bit more this week. I don't remember mentioning it before but since early in my pregnancy I have had horrible nightmares, mostly of loosing this precious baby and Dyl being horribly mean or cheating - I thought this was just my mind manifesting not only my fears but also since we suffered a miscarriage last year at the same time we struggled with some problems in our marriage that my nightmares were trying to replay last year which sucks! Our marriage is stronger than ever and we both believe that this baby will be here forever but still these nightmares terrified me every night and apparently this is pretty common but today was the first day that I didn't have either and I'm so happy that I may be past those nightmares and I will gladly trade them for some crazy dreams about cats or something. Still feeling some heartburn here and there but not too bothersome,and lately I've been craving green olives so bad, I literally snag a few from the jar all day and they are SO good. This week I went from feeling something to definitely feeling the baby - while hunting for his/her heartbeat with the doppler and the other was while Dyl had his hand on my belly and although he couldn't feel it, I could feel our baby moving against his hand and it was such an exciting and amazing moment.. I can't wait for him to feel the baby move. I also at the end of the week felt the baby move, on the outside! We were watching Batman and I could feel the baby moving around so I put my hand on my belly and I felt this little kick or punch at my hand and I couldn't believe it! I also laughed because with our son I remember the first time I felt him kick on the outside was while we were watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and I find it so funny that both our babies like Daddy's movies (although I quite like Batman too). Movements are still very sporadic throughout the day but I know I'm feeling the baby and it won't be long before I'm feeling this precious baby move around all day :)
Belly is measuring 38inches, I'm beginning to feel like the quick growth spurt I had in the first trimester is catching up and things will slow down for a couple weeks (though hopefully not too long, I like my big baby belly)
DADDY MOMENTS
Everytime I would feel kicks Daddy would exclaim how much he couldn't wait to feel our little one move.
Everytime I would feel kicks Daddy would exclaim how much he couldn't wait to feel our little one move.
FAVORITE PART OF THE WEEK
Having that for sure moment of feeling our baby kick.
LOOKING FORWARD TO
Less than 2 weeks until we see our beautiful baby (knowing that he/she is healthy) and find out if our little one is a boy or a girl!
Less than 2 weeks until we see our beautiful baby (knowing that he/she is healthy) and find out if our little one is a boy or a girl!
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