Hoping

Well, that was a pretty rough morning I had there, unfortunately that crappy morning was followed by a bitter day at work (although my appointment, a sweet 3 year old boy & his parents were wonderful) and a long, emotional conversation with my poor husband. I don't even know how he manages to do it but, eventually, he always finds a way to calm me down – I don't have the slightest clue what I would be doing midst all of this if I didn't have him beside me, I'm so lucky.

My temps have been misleading since then, up and down but not as low as it was during my cycle (last time I charted my temps plummeted the day before my period). I'm anxiously awaiting my period, hoping it no-shows and gives me a happy positive instead.

So here we are, today my period is due, 31 days, its past 4pm and no sign or reason to think it'll make an appearance. I mean, I've had some cramping but normally its absolutely nothing then BAM PERIOD which is then followed by insane cramps. Is it possible? Or is it all in my head? Ugh I have no idea what to think anymore. None the less we have a pretty little test waiting for me and I know even it wants to be positive for us.

I'm hoping, boy am I hoping it'll be positive.