Truth is...

The truth is I'm completely dreading the day I go into labor & delivery at our hospital and face answering the routine questions "is this your first pregnancy?" which follows with "how many living children do you have?"

3rd.
None.

Then needing to explain everything and the awkward silence that will more than likely follow. It's not that I'm ashamed of our precious baby, the circumstances surrounding his loss or the struggles we have faced since it's just that I don't want to explain all of this to a complete stranger.