A Bucket List

I do this every time we don't conceive, its my way of dealing with the disappointment and changing my focus. So I made a cute little Pre-Pregnancy Bucket List, to keep me a little more positive about not being pregnant. I actually saw one of my favorite bloggers put together something similar before she conceived so I pulled some inspiration from her to turn my usually simple to-do list into something a little nicer on the eyes.

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I also think it is worth mentioning my concerns surrounding the possibility of a December due date, had we been pregnant we would be looking at a 12/31/2012 due date. While Dyl and I discussed options and how we could get around the holidays between late pregnancy and a new born, I am relieved that I wont have to worry about dragging a newborn here and there in the middle of winter, at the height of cold & flu season. Pair our history with seeing first hand how sick newborns can get, you can call us paranoid or aware ;)

Along with newborn concerns, I couldn't help but wonder how I could possibly handle all the craziness of the holidays at the very end of a high risk pregnancy (Would I end up on bed rest? An emergency c-section? Early maternity leave? Etc) I have no problem pushing myself, that isn't something new but its a whole other world when pushing myself includes our little one.

I know all of this is very trivial, not one bit would truly matter if we were pregnant and I would happily trade each concern, inconvenience and deli meat sandwich for us to be expecting our little one right now. This is just a way for me to turn my disappointment into something positive for me, doesn't mean I'm not upset or that I wont be bitter this month but it'll help to look back at this entry and think “Okay, its not that bad I guess”