I think, at this point in time, that is truly where I stand right now, I make no promises for the future or even how we will feel in a month or two but I know that right now, in this moment, that I need a break. I need a break from the stress of trying to conceive, charting and tracking, temperatures and paying too much attention to all the little signals the body may or may not send. I need a break from "I can't, just incase", the disappointment of another negative test and having my heart break with every failed month.
I need time to heal the fresh breaks in my already broken heart, I want to find a way to remember this baby and I need to take some time to focus on myself and on my sweet husband who has been so strong for me while he is dealing with so much too. I will still be around and I pray that when we are ready that I will return, happy and healthy, and pregnant again.
Until we meet again.
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