Merry Christmas

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This thought, this story, is exactly what is keeping my hopes up this year as another holiday with empty arms and an aching heart has arrived. The possibility has been mentioned by my family multiple times, that maybe next Christmas there will be another grandchild here. It is so encouraging to hear stories like this, it gives me a lot of hope and it also lets me know I am not alone in this wanting.

I am taking care of my body and slowly preparing for when we begin trying to conceive again, I am very hopeful that the New Year will be filled with all sorts of good and happiness.

Today and tomorrow, as our families celebrate Christmas I am deciding to enjoy the time with them. I will still miss my children, my heart will still ache for what I am missing with them had they been here, but I am going to try to really enjoy what I am surrounded by. It has been a really hard year for us and I am ready to just enjoy what I have. We are so blessed to have both of our families so close that we can spend the holidays with them so easily, I know we are so incredibly blessed - for that I am more than thankful.

Anywho Merry Christmas (to my blog? haha, so I can read back and acknowledge it?), may the holidays be gentle on our hearts as we ache for someone who isn't here to celebrate with us. May the holidays bring joy and happiness, and hope to those needing it.